diploma dah habis, bro

I've just finish my diploma last three weeks. but then I don't know what should I do in the future. Its difficult I think. I think a lot lately, like a lot a lot. If I said a lot, it really is. because I'm rarely think a lot like this before. hehe. back to the story, actually I think about to continuing my study or just stop at diploma level and go find a work for survive my own life. eceh. I keep thinking about financial, because for me it is the important thing after all. Trust me, if they say money can't buy happiness, they lied. Money can buy me a book, and it is my happiness. haha. oh my lord, I always do this thing, tell other story that not related. Back to track,  I don't know what should I do. I want to earn my own money, I want to continue my study, I want to buy a car, and  a lottttttttttttttt of lother stuff that I want to buy. For now, I keep thinking about my future, what will happens to me? what will I do? What is gonna happens if I work first, study later, what if I do that, what if what ifffff?

My result will be out on 1 November. It is scary man. This is the end. This is final. I should get good grade, or at least I pass all my papers. If not? I don't know. :( I can't sleep, I have no feel to eat. I don't know what happens to me. Maybe I keep thinking so many things and I can't figure out one by one. hahaha. Typical me. I said to people that I have problems, when people asked me what is my problem, I will say, I don't know. Funny aite?

About work, I keep asking my friends, is there any vacancy at their place. Two of them ask for my resume. I want to get a job because a lot of things I want to do. For now, i just stay home and doing nothing, other than eating, sleeping, watching television. Its quite boring okay after three weeks. Even though it seems like okay to rest after three years struggling with studies. I want to gain experience to work at the office even I love to involve in F&B(food and beverages) industry.

By the way, about continuing my study, I've just applied it. I actually it was 50-50 but idk. I just follow the flow. I can't think other things anymore. It was hard. I keep procrastinate it. Avoid it if I can, but somehow I want to do it. I just apply and I wish I don't get it or get it or idk! Its 3.05 in the morning and I talking about serious thing and it my future. urghhhhh okbye

hye guys.

is there someone else who reads my blog? other than me? haha so perasan. okay actually I don't know what story I'm gonna to tell here. this is because due to long time that I did'nt post anything in here. I'm just randomly writing anything that crossed my mind k?

Firstly. actually I just finished my 5th semester in Diploma of Business Studies. waaa! it almost 3 years and a half I'm studying at IPB. Its a long journey though. So many things that I've been through there. What people call it? "tendang terajang" hahaha. Nonetheless I'm succeed to face it as a student. From first semester, second, third, fourth and now finally fifth.Now I'm just sitting at home and waiting for my result on 10th May. I know from all semester, this semester was the semester that I put less effort on. I don't know why. I rarely go to class. From the started I have problems and makes me more lazy to go to class and face people. Seriously I think I'm having age problems due to one number added at my age. haha! oh by the way I am twenty-one people! (ahah perasannya macam ada orang baca blog ni) Happy Birthday for me. hm. 

Secondly! actually I'm little bit dissapointed with people around me. My family especially. but as a child I shouldnt feel that way right? just take and face it. I'm a tough girl you know! Other than that, I feel really em confuse with someone. We named him as adik. actually that is his "nama manja" that his family calls him. We know each other almost 2years. started from SUKOB on 2011. We became friends on facebook. He requested to be my friend there. So I just accepted him. From there we keep in touch and one day he asks for my number. I don't know what I'm thinking than I just gave it to him. We started to texting and so on and so fourth. haha. He once played guitar for me through call sms. (dulu je servis ni ada). Actually where's my story should go anyway? hahahahaa. I'm just gonna say that I miss his accompany. thats all. 

Thirdly. I should write some note so that I'm not going to forget what I want to tell here. hadoi! Okay! just remember one thing. Yesterday, I just found very good videos on youtube. Finally! a great vloggers after Matluthfi, MariaElena, AnwarHadi and more. I found AimanAzlan and Adibah Awg. They speak in English. I AM really adore with them! Its like watching an English people talk. ohmyyy! its better than watching OhMyEnglish. really? because OME is not really work for me. Adibah Awg was really awesome in her videos. I mean she really can speak nicely and her accent really fascinate me. Wah. Actually I should'nt tell this, but I'm ashamed of myself because I love English language but at some point I cant really speak as good as her. My point here is, its not enough to just go to school or class to learn the language without practicing it. Because the language has been a lingua franca that most part of the world are using it. Learn English doesnt mean you have to ignore your mother tounge. It just a what we call "nilai tambah" in ourself. Furthermore, her videos also are good to watch. I love her opinion and some part of the advice she gives to us and not forgetting Aiman Azlan. He from Kelantan anyway my place of birth too. What I'm gonna say is, he is good. oh thats all.




crap.