HEARTbreaks (taken from If You Could See Me Now)

when you drop a glass or a plate to the ground, it makes a loud crashing sound. when a window shatters, a table legs break, or a picture falls off the wall, it makes a noise. but as for your heart, when that breaks; its completely silent. you would think as its important. it would makes loudest noise in the whole world or even have some sort ceremonies sound like the gong or a symbal or a ringing of a bell. but it's silent and you almosrt wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.if there a noise, it's internal. it screams and no one can hear it but you. it screams so loudly your ears ring and you head aches. it trashes around in your chest like a great white caught in the sea, it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. that's what it looks like and that's what it sounds like, a trashing, panicking, trapped, great big beast, roaring, like a prisoner to its own emotions. but that's the things about love; no one is untouchable. it's a wild as that, as raw as an open flash wound exposed to salty sea water, but when it actually breaks, it's silent, you are just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it.

Bismilahhirahmannirahim..

Ya ALLAH, jika aku jatuh cinta,
cintakanlah aku pada seseorang,yang melabuhkan cintanya pada-Mu untuk mencintai-Mu..

Ya ALLAH, jika aku jatuh cinta,
jagalah cintaku padanya,
agar tidak melebihi cintaku pada-Mu...

Ya ALLAH, jika aku jatuh cinta,
izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang,
yang hatinya bertaut pada-Mu,
agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang semu...

Ya ALLAH, jika aku jatuh cinta,
jagalah hatiku padanya,
agar tidak berpaling dari-Mu...

Ya ALLAH, aku bermohon pada-Mu,
untuk selalu mencintai-Mu...

aku ?